addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
learn to let go
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
until we meet again
and i won't forget you my friend
what happened
people change. sometimes i just wish they wouldn't. now it's like this person's gone. forever. i mean of course the person is still alive, but the character that this person used to be is gone. forever! feels like i've lost a friend. well i guess i should just be thankful for the memories. thankful for the friendship that lasted those few mths (: i shouldn't be sad... right?
ermm i smell like oily mucky water. port dickson was alright i guess. not exactly a fantastic race for me. but considering it was a training race i guess it was quite alright. got some pretty bad blisters. bleagh. stained my shoes. gr. erps. was feeling quite depressed after the race. but after six plus hours of self-talk in the bus, i guess i sorted myself out. i think that it's pretty amazing how when one is left alone, one's "conscience" will start talking. lol. i mean i was just sitting by the window listening to my music, and then there was this voice in my head that was talking to me. interesting. i'd ask questions and the voice would reply. haha. this IS normal right? or maybe i've got a personality disorder. hahah.
patience. i got thrown off my original track cos of something someone said to me. and because of all that stuff that happened. but i'm starting to realise how impt it is to find my way back to that track. i guess that in some ways the race did help remind me of why i like tri so much. last year i rmb how i had to get off my bike during the bike leg and push it up the hills cos i really coulnd't pedal my way up those horrid hills. just made me realise that i shouldn't be worrying so much about my times. it's the smaller things that count the most.
self-discipline.from tomorrow onwards i've gotta start slogging my ass off. haven't decided on the erps and the other erps. i just hope that whatever i choose, i will not regret. and ofcourse that i will get the choice la. heh. but in the case that i am doing erps then yah i really gotta start slogging. meaning less wasting of my time doing stupid things like BLOGGING! ahha.
okay should go sleep. it's been an eventful weekend.
to this person (who probably doesn't read this): thank you for being the great friend you were. i'm sorry but i can't take it anymore. trying to talk things out just makes things worse so i guess i'll just stay out of your way (: time for me to let go of the old you.